Dream on

the thing I was dreading? took 20 minutes an was the most pleasant of its kind ever. THey even offered me coffee 0_o

Got just about everythign done - only need to drop off some papers and pick up a ton of meds tomorrow, so I a happy. Nothing is going wrong, wheeness. much, much wheeness at that.

laterI will be cooking another dinner today. I have pictures of tyesterday's delicacy.. which, incidentlaly, needs repeating, therefore recipe shall follo:

The sauce:
50 g of bacon, in bits
1 small onion, thinly sliced
1 small red bell pepper. chopped
300 g of lean ground beef
5 cloves of garlc, crushed
butter
flour
cream
water
ketchup
processed cheese

Stick the bacon ont eh pan and let it get brown; then toss in butter and the ground beef. don't let the ground beef go brown - this is important. just grayish-cooked. then, add flour and make a.. rou? I think. them, add coldwater cad cream. let it thicken, then add some processed cheese and ketchup, to taste

THis, I stuffed into cannelonni and laid said cannelloni on top and covered with said sauce in a pan - however, the pan was large so I added a ton of cherry tomatoes ont he sides and top, doused everything with cream, and then covered with nuggets of processed cheese.

THis was KILLER good :D

But yeah,today is a pretty good day :)

Ara's karma has nessec9itated that osme thingas not be paid until alter this week. *grimace* or more like, "When mommy borrows me the money I need".

But - I HAVE MY PLANE TICKET! *dances in glee*

I will be arriving in Heathrow around 1 pm on Saturday 23rd. And, I have to make my way to Brighton somehow - I will know better closer to the actual date.

In other news, i am goign to Oulu tomorrow. Pity karma struck and I got lucky - One of my aunt's sorta-friends is going and I badgered a ride. THis means, picking up a nice shiny jacket which will probably replace my leather jacket for the trip - layers will be my friends.

Other thant hat, missed therapy. Oops. Not that I want anything to do with the damm woman. I probably would have only babbled about my triuip and not my issues.

*sigh*

Yeah,.s tillf eeling vaguely miserable Which sucks.

I have Jenova home and a new keyboard. now I should just get arounfd to, yo u know, doing the thing where I pulg her ina nd so on.. but I am too lazy to. maybe on Saturday.... o something.

Also, have sleep meds. a tenox form mom and 4 some random oxysomethings from the doc. will bneed to get another appoiubtement... and oh, have a dentist's appointment ont he 14th,too.

weigh remiains the same.. but therew was a slight NS: the bblood pressure measurement thingy worked just fine with the standard wraparound, no need for the really big one they usually use.

IOther news, eh, well, consumed about gaxillion calories cause I needed the wonderfulness of reddd meaaat so I had a huge megaburger. cause, you know, it has been MINTHs since I evebn set a foot in a fast food joingt of the burger sort... and ooh, saw mom. for she and her ex wer ein town. thus, much hanging around commenced and stuff was done. i now ghave a new shiny xcweell phone that I don't know how to use - SO much fun, that one. *sigh*

todayäs agenda is.. ah, packl everything I need - quick, guys, tell me what do I neeD so I won't forget anything! - and then.. go to sleep. well, nto immediately afterwards, but I am aiming at 8 pm my time or so - so I can get in some serious sleep before getting up at 6 am. ish.

*poibnts at icon* ciourtesy of navigatorsghost. Pretty, isn't he? :D

So.... I hgacve lood today. First, i had to endure the therapist for an hour.. igh, me no likey. she is annoying. namesake was SO much etter.... *le sigh* ut yeah, lived. and then went to donate blood.

so ok, when reading the thingy with allt he info on it, I went "Gah" and nearly wqlkee out.. the whole guy-on-guy sex = permanent disqualification from giving lood thing hasd me VERY pissed off.

ut I did it anyway, alas, there was some VERY itchy commentary from me in the feedack paper slip things we were given.

the whole proceedure was perfectly easy, and as it turned out, pnaama & saikk92's mother was volutntereering - which led to us cvhattering about stuff the whole time I was lying there. after the usual stuff (my condolences to Käppö... spending the summer telemarketeering must suck ;/ ) we ended up lathering aout Lordi. which was of the awesome, really. ;D ;D ;D

After that, I went shopping and thus today's d9nner is going to e steak :D and I will give soy lasagna a try later, maybe. or soy-filled cannelonithingamajiks.

Now?

I am goping to listen to some more Lordi and relax.

and plot. ecause there HAS to way to include pizza in a L/D fic.

So. Had my glasses fizxed,a nd came to the conclusion I need new ones. Also, wwent to the store to tell about Jen being kaput. Will take her there on Friday. poor guy. his face fell SO bad when I said Jen is dead again..

After that, went to see the new therapist. She was...d ecent, I suppose,. Somewhat clueless. It is going to take a LONG time to get this thing running well again. Amsuingly enough, we both wore jeans and green long-sleeved shirts... think the next appointment in 2 weeks or so is going to be, ah, interesting.

In other news... the snow is mostly gone. there's still piles of stuff left, but.. the majkority of it is gone, gone gone... 'tis spring. and I feel all energixzed now. Like I want to do stuff... no idea what, tho. Want to write, wabnt to plot my cvisit to the UK, wanbt to.. no idea what I want to, other than stuff is boiling under my skin.

And incidentally, the paint for my new bookcase would cost more than the case did :D

So... today I went to see the Namesake for therapy as usual. it was nice enough..... and the last time ever, most likely,t hat I will have her as my shiny therapist.

She´'s.... not quitting. taking some time off her job to work as a project leaser for the local mental heatlh organization thingy.

caan we say "fuck"?

I will get to talk to her replacement in April. at the end of April, more specifically, after Easter. And I got a hug. the best hug I have had in ages - warm and sqquishy and long. But still - no more namesake. No more taklking to someone who actually knows what I am talking about, doesnåt mind me slipping into English, jhust... gets me.

See Ara being verrry verrry morose.

But... this led to Developements. Namely, she managed to convince me to visit the local cvlub house for the criminally insane, aka the mental health organization's headquarters. Mainly, so I could get someone to kick my ass into cleaning.

When I walked out I had agreed to... let's see, amongst toher things,t o babysitting. Sort of - one of the volunteers has 7 kids anbd when she takes the four youngest ones to swim, she needs an extra pair of weyes. Not like that is fgoing to lead to laptasticness, but should be fun. and it´¨s kids"! Youngest of the 4 is 2 year sold.... meep. and hetr animal-crazy rw'teenage daughter might eventually start visiting me to cuddle the cats and keep me company while I clean...

and did I mentiont aht I can take any excess bakingness there, so no more poor Ara being unable to bake because she will eat everything at one go?

*asigh*

what the fuck did I get myself into, I wonde? I will go there again tomorrow after I go see the lady with the scale... makes me geel vaguely mmm-graghle-y. thwre will b crafts. and possibly I will go there on Friday for karaoke - I figure I will be able to treat it as singing practise rather than actual karaoke.. maybe.

adn they ahve a piano. *sigh`I wish I knew how to play...

and I wonder what the fuck did I get myself into.

now.. I believe I am off to make self some breakfast.

Am waiting for the ground beef to defroze so I can have my yummy sphagetti... am also sitting around trying to get warm because it's frreewak-ass cold out ther eand I had to go see tyhe namesake. She had not been able to talk to the doc yet but she did scompliment my boots and we babbles d a lot about inconsequential things. Which is fof the good.

Am currently stressing out ont he tri to the #nanowrimo meet. WHy=? NBecause, dear friends, I have become a clotheshorse. I am going OMG"!Angst and thinking about bring lots of shoes and a dozen different outfits and other craptacular idiocy like that...

so yeah, shoot me now please.

Other than that... well, will dye my hair tonight methinks.

so, the guy I was angsting about, the one I was afraid was using me? is backing off. he told me that it might be crazy but he might be getting emotional. 0_o

so, we talked. Ad inn, TALKED. favorite movies - he loves Sin CIty -music, (Franz Ferdinand - wtf? - i found out that he is younger than I expected... he is also shortt. but he is cute. and antoi-conservative. and has played D&D when he was younfer. *giggle*

Also., he works in a steady job - IT in a bank. Has a BA. *makes happy noisesd*

And he plays the bass.

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In other news, Yoga was fun. Got there in less than 15 mins which made me go slightly wtf...

also, for the first time, i couldn't ddo something :( trying to do the windmill thing made me nauseous so I couldn't do it more than once *sigh*

Must Not Eat till morning - or go to the toilet. Am going to the lab exams in the morning.. so i might actyually have to go to bed at some point. Or something.

Will see the new therapist tomororow, too - he is the dude who replaced my dear darling namesake for 3 months. it shouldn't be TOO bad... but I have sugarfree red bull just in case.

Sooo... went to see the therapist. Was nothing too bad. gabbed a lot. Didn't cry even when talking about The Bastard. Whee.

She is going to leave for 3 months at the end of this month, Which sucks. Will see her on the 20th, but after taht it's 3 months with the new guiy. And yes, it is a guy, Am ambivalent bout that - never had a male therapist before. *shrug*

Also... my first proper LJ poll!


[Poll #564920]

Guy-repliness is good. As is a therapist ewho squees over the little belt project I showed her.

Also, so is food. No idea what will have., though.

Have a requesyt & question for flist.

1. No HPB spoliers, please

2. Anyone out there who is good with teh photography? I need advice on the best ways to show off a less-than-flattering body.