Dream on

So. all this stuff on LJ andelsewhere regarding writing characters of color made me think about my own writing. How can I do this, why am I not doing it already, how can I do it and not fuck up...

and then I realized something.

Flavor of the MOnth from 04, the unnamed story from 05 - both actually have characters of color as main effing characters. Rafe, Tony, Juan - all hispanic.

and this made me facepalm. A LOT. Like".. why the fuck as I woried, I have doneit already"

andthen I started facepalming some more. Because this is not something I was actually thinking about when I wrote them - not really. So Now I am eworrying - did they come out "right"? Did I do something wrong there? And all I can think is...

I wrote them as characters first, color secondary. Mostly it was due to my intense fascination with Hispanic men at the time, which admittedly is a pretty fucking tupid reason to create characters of color. So more facepalm there.

It leaves mefeeling rather confused and makes me think it is time for a lot more thinky thoughts.