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[arabwel]

So,. lessee... feeling sickly still. not fdoing much, just writing. and listening to the new Iron Maiden albbum - like it. Lots :) so ok, writing is more like "attempting to" because it is not relaly working out well.

feeling rather whingetastic, I am afraid. which menas you may or may nbot be subjected to a lot of bitching and whining and a weep Ara. keep ddaydreaming of things I will never have abd it leaves me feeling.. pretty shattered. *sigh* And too damn alone.

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[arabwel.livejournal.com]

His name is Dima Bilan. he's never going to be in the same room as me, let alone anything else. 'nuff said.

[rifumi.livejournal.com]

Obsessive tendencies are another thing altogether. You don't really want Dima Bilan, you want somebody to love you & take care of you etc. Why you go looking for that special someone in places you can't find him, eg. celebrity fansites, is probably indicative of some emotional damage on your part. But with a competent therapist and a dose of real-life persons the issue could be solved. Remember, the best cure for a broken heart is to find someone new.. but it's hard to find anyone if you're looking for them desperately. You get what you give up.

And you can find someone who completely sweeps you off your feet like Dima does, in the future, in real life. So no regrets for past tears, but you should start rebuilding your self-image to be person you want to be, and your life into what you want it to be. Sounds hard? 10 years is surely enough to achieve any changes you want.