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[arabwel]

So,. lessee... feeling sickly still. not fdoing much, just writing. and listening to the new Iron Maiden albbum - like it. Lots :) so ok, writing is more like "attempting to" because it is not relaly working out well.

feeling rather whingetastic, I am afraid. which menas you may or may nbot be subjected to a lot of bitching and whining and a weep Ara. keep ddaydreaming of things I will never have abd it leaves me feeling.. pretty shattered. *sigh* And too damn alone.

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[navigatorsghost.livejournal.com]

*fly-by snuggles!* Glad to hear you like the new Maiden album, but sorry you're upset. Here, *points at icon* have an Eddie...

[arabwel.livejournal.com]

*snuggleclings* thank you... this whole upsetness thing sucks so many species' balls it is not even funny....

and ooh,t hank you. *Snuggles with Eddie*

[apprentice-lurk.livejournal.com]

*hugs and skritchies* *sends Iron Maiden over with copious amounts of tea*

[arabwel.livejournal.com]

*snugglepurrrs* *accepts gratefully*


.-.. there has to be some sort of a cosmic wtf fromt he fact that my oop-star-induced angst is being assuaged by copious amounts of metal... 0_o

*clings*

[tamchronin.livejournal.com]

~huggles muchly~

Feel better, luv. You're too sweet to feel rotten. (And if my teasing came across the wrong way on f_w, I'm sorry 'bout that...)

[arabwel.livejournal.com]

*hugglesnuggles*

thanks.-... I just canöt help it, I ghuess. stupid hormones and all that making mefeel bwah beah bah lonely after lovely dreams that involve pretty men who tell me they love me *sighs'

And nope, did not come across at any sort of wrong wa y at all. Was not offended or anything. *hugggles*

[tamchronin.livejournal.com]

Ah, I see. Being in a state of hormonal overload myself, you have my complete sympathy.

[arabwel.livejournal.com]

It sucks majorly, and is made worse by my complete lack of friends anywhere nearby - so no supportive huggles of the physical kind. I am jsut glad i have not gotten, ah, affected enough to decide to do something stupid like go to the local bar and get wasted in search of some random company. *sigh*

[tamchronin.livejournal.com]

When I was single, I always thought of it this way. I might get plenty of action and attention by going to a bar, but is it really the *kind* I want? Most of the worthwhile people I've met were through tabletop RPing...but I enjoy geeks. Try to find something nearby that you can enjoy doing without the hangover or the possibility of doing something stupid while you're drunk. If you don't meet anyone special that way, at least you're more likely to find some friends, and have some good times. (But listen to me saying this, when I don't have any friends I can get hugs from closer than an hour's drive away and haven't seen them in six years or so... << That's just what I did *before* I had Anakin and decided the rest of the world sucks too much to be a part of.)

[arabwel.livejournal.com]

Alas, my hometown doesnöt have anything worthwhile. tryust me, I have tried looking *sigh* Not even a single gamer geek besides myself.... if there are, they're jailbait with muchly certanity.

I donöt actually get hangovers or get drunk easily, but suffice to say that I have done a lot of really effing stupid things when completely sober, too. *sigh*

I hate the fact that I am desperate enough to crave any sort of attention - even the drunk barfly sort. Especiually since I'm so ugly that I only attract the complete dregs in any bar I go to...a nd talking about this town, that is a lot.

[tamchronin.livejournal.com]

Eeek and yikes. Maybe I'm just lucky to have come from a big enough city that that sort of thing worked. =/

You are *NOT* ugly. You've got beautiful hair, a beautiful face, and it's a shame that in Europe and North America the standard of beauty seems to be stick figure no matter how fugly a girl is when some guy is picking his teeth with her. (flossing his teeth with her on the other hand... ~cough, blush~) Carry yourself with confidence, and a sense of style, and most people (at least people like me) will find you attractive no matter what your scale says. If they don't, they don't deserve you, and it's not your fault there are so many unworthy people in the world.

[arabwel.livejournal.com]

THis town is a horrible, horrible place ands you can imagine why ) am absolutely DYING to get the hell out of here. preferably by being rescued by a knight in a taarnished armourto get two birds with one stone...

I wisgh i could believe that, I relaly do but............. it's incredibly hard when each and every day, everything proves otherwise. :/

[rifumi.livejournal.com]

I've said this before, but it bears repeating.. what are you dreaming of that you can't possibly have? Even if it took you ten YEARS to turn your life around, you'd still be only 30 and could anything you wanted. Stop telling yourself that you can't. Worked for me, is all I can say.

[arabwel.livejournal.com]

His name is Dima Bilan. he's never going to be in the same room as me, let alone anything else. 'nuff said.

[rifumi.livejournal.com]

Obsessive tendencies are another thing altogether. You don't really want Dima Bilan, you want somebody to love you & take care of you etc. Why you go looking for that special someone in places you can't find him, eg. celebrity fansites, is probably indicative of some emotional damage on your part. But with a competent therapist and a dose of real-life persons the issue could be solved. Remember, the best cure for a broken heart is to find someone new.. but it's hard to find anyone if you're looking for them desperately. You get what you give up.

And you can find someone who completely sweeps you off your feet like Dima does, in the future, in real life. So no regrets for past tears, but you should start rebuilding your self-image to be person you want to be, and your life into what you want it to be. Sounds hard? 10 years is surely enough to achieve any changes you want.