Urgh

[arabwel]

So, recap of today. I habve a sinus infection, a sore tooth, pink eye, possibly angina or whatever that is in English, and on top of that, they cut off my phone due to unpaid bills.

Oops.

and that's not all. the fucking doc I saw today about keeping the money sflowing? Dear God she made me want to scream. she actually ahd the gall to suggest Id'd go to the effing ward. I felt more cornered and fucking ready to bolt or tear something apart than I have in ages - dear God but I wnated to scream. their ethical duty to see me get better and not be sent to early retirement - yeah rigght. 'shudders*

she was not pleased to heart hat i am off to Briutland, but I am secure for another six months. ther eis going to be a meeting, to which I was cordially invited *snort, involving a lot of people.. the people who give me my disability, the social services,t he nice people who pay the jobless, the doc at the health center... that sort of a thing. I am SO not looking forward to it.

the gist of it? they are forcing me to try to "get better" aka go to school or somesuch. can we say no. fucking. way!

amusingly enough, the one thing she kept harping on about is my sleep schedule - which is, as I like to say, perfectly n9ormal for someone whose "Job" is writing, with people who live on another continent. Bleh.

I am going to write morre pr0n now, I think. And still hoping for someone to give the Lordi/Awa/Dima thing a look about if it works or not before I post.

Comments

[arabwel.livejournal.com]

My so-called therapist? she's a "psykiatrinen erikoissairaanhoitaja", that's what all of them have been. when I brought up the thing about "I want a good therapist for psychotherapy, not supportive therapy!" they were all sorts of "maybe when you do what we wnat you to do", the bitches. the doctor is pretty much the Power that Is in the whole shebang in the Oulun lääni, so she is a2ualified... but knows jack about me asince I see her maybe twice a year.

Mostly the problem for moving to anotherm bigger place is the lack of money - not being able to get into the sopcial services' goodgraces immediatel. if they can solve that, I am SO the HELL outta here.

[cutedeadgirl.livejournal.com]

Have you looked into finding a private psychiatrist? Kela can pay for most of it so I pay 35€/hour for mine about once a moth or less often. And yeah Kela still pays for that even they refuse to for the moment acknowledge I am disabled.

If you find the right person she/he *will* listen to you, and work with and for you against the evil gov. I don't know what I'd do without mine. Ask around, that might be a huge help for you.

[arabwel.livejournal.com]

Not a single psychiatrist otr such in my lovely hometown - Pudasjärvi is a wretched hive of scum and reindeer-fuckers *sigh* I won't be able to get therapy of the good sort until/if I get the hell out of here :/

[cutedeadgirl.livejournal.com]

You need to move over here :). Capital area has everything, altho it depends greatly on where exactly you settle in.

[arabwel.livejournal.com]

I donöt deal well with people *sigh* so I would be like a fish out of water anywhere larger tham, sya, Oulu or rovaniemi. I find Helsinki to be extremely intimidating.

[cutedeadgirl.livejournal.com]

I use this thing called "not going out" ;).

[arabwel.livejournal.com]

THey want me to_ *sigh* Plus, there's such thing as grocery shoppin and so on.

[rifumi.livejournal.com]

Nahh, they're bullshitting you. First, once you get approved by Kela, YOU get to choose the therapist, not anyone else. Second, I doubt there are any qualified therapists near where you live, Oulu might be the best bet. So tell them that as long as you are getting "therapy" from an underqualified communal psychologist, they can't expect your condition to improve. You might also want to consider lying your way out - pick a school or a workplace in Oulu or whereever where you "really, really" want to attend, and maybe they'll take care of it for you. Sometimes you need to be a bitch to get what you need.