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arabwelObligatory rl entry. A"rokign on ÄMM. Sleepy. also angstypanickyflashbacky...
cause, you know, I got a call form my therapist yeasterday. the new, crpapy one. she and I scheduled a meetingfor August 14th. and I only now realized that it's day-after-con. so ok, I wil be back wasy enough - after all, I will most likely be flying there and back and e home before noon..
the problem? I donöt LIKE her. she ius jsut like the bad therapists I had in the past. And now I am having scvayscaray flashbacs. Because btoh in 2002 and 2003 I was ocked up in the psycgh ward almost iummediately after ropecon. n 2002, I was sick as a dog with larynxitis anbd couldnöt get out of the bed and when people trie dto make me dot hings, i fgot angry as hell.t he resutl? Locked up for five days for haviing been fucked up by the amn convention, according to them. After Ropecon 2003? I was pretty damn irritable due to a9 having spent the night outside the railway station and b) general tirednes.s the reult two weeks locke dup. I stil have nightmared of both times.
You can imagine hy Ara is Not Happy ight now.
cause, you know, I got a call form my therapist yeasterday. the new, crpapy one. she and I scheduled a meetingfor August 14th. and I only now realized that it's day-after-con. so ok, I wil be back wasy enough - after all, I will most likely be flying there and back and e home before noon..
the problem? I donöt LIKE her. she ius jsut like the bad therapists I had in the past. And now I am having scvayscaray flashbacs. Because btoh in 2002 and 2003 I was ocked up in the psycgh ward almost iummediately after ropecon. n 2002, I was sick as a dog with larynxitis anbd couldnöt get out of the bed and when people trie dto make me dot hings, i fgot angry as hell.t he resutl? Locked up for five days for haviing been fucked up by the amn convention, according to them. After Ropecon 2003? I was pretty damn irritable due to a9 having spent the night outside the railway station and b) general tirednes.s the reult two weeks locke dup. I stil have nightmared of both times.
You can imagine hy Ara is Not Happy ight now.
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Date: 2006-07-18 06:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-18 06:12 am (UTC)those fucks ruine ed my life. relaly.
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Date: 2006-07-18 03:24 pm (UTC)I'm sorry I've not beeen around much (I'm on vacation with near-zero net access) but... damn. I'm sending you much hugs and good thoughts, and if there's anything else I can do at this distance, let me know. I care. I really do. *hughugpatscritchies*
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Date: 2006-07-18 03:30 pm (UTC)I know exaclty what you can do - enjoy your vacation to the max. I love to know that my friends are having fun,t herefore, by enjoying yourself you are making me feel better.
*snugglpurrr*