*whistles*

So, when your day at work which starts 3 hours later than usual and is all of 4 hours long pretty muh starts with your manager going "top ' the morning" and "you (me+Ultzi) look like you didnöt behave last nigtght", how good has the day started?

Pretty damn good.

We got to tell him "well, it is funny how the garda don't speak finnish..."

Ya, we had a fun tiem yesterday after work. we sat at the Liffey boardwalk, drank, drank some more, talked, jsut hung out and enjoyed outrselves in general. Obviously got wasted, actually threw uip on myself - cough + drinking = can cause awkward s ituations - and then at the ned of the night, I buggered off to Brux.

So i also found out that FOr some reason M wants me to stay the fuck aay from me. i donät know why - I have no idea what I ahve fdone. I supect it has to do witht he boi but... I don't know. and it hurts. Thank God I was surrounded by friends - not jsut the coworkers whose attempts at cheering me up usually fail miserably cause they jsut don't operate on the same level I do, even though hey do try.. but, you know, others. (and incidentally after nicking my phone, my coworkers gree ont he awesomeness of certain people who sent me long texts... blood twits, but I like them anyway!)

But yeah, we drank, had fun,a ndparted when it got chilly.. I made it to brux, and went home with a nice guy who had seen me at Dominion before and kind fo talked to me when i hit the batr the second time. CUte enough, weas a daaaanmn good shag, made e coffee int he morning and I still need to give him his t-shirt back. GOt his name but not his #, oh well. I will probably see hima gain sometime, and when i do, i wouldn't mind a repea performance. Nice, uncomplöited sex wih someon with a personality I could NOT stand more than tiny amounts of time... well ok, not personality, sjtu, um flaky occult!goth who tries to do the whole intellectual and deep thing. Umm... nooo, not really anything beyond a good shag there.

.. and it is amusin that everyone in my team knows what i did cause they basically TOLD me to do it - pick up someone compeltely random. I stills ay i ddin't do that - he was no too random, we know some of the smae people, at least by sightl and yes, our team has goosd spirit liek that - we can go tdrinking, tlak about everything andd anything from sex to... err, sex relaly, we talk wayt oo much about that... but yeah. we rock. I do like them and donöt mind hanging out with them. the fria i didn't, well, it also involved others I do not like int he team -t e older set,t he ones who hate ireland and are POd allt he time and are not really enjoying it here.

tonight it is jsut going home for me, i think, to sleep a ton more. And then.. well,. probably more lseep. tomorrow, it is the gig at Voodoo Lounge, then probably brux - I am not int he mood for Dominion. ell ok, so i am but.. jsut, not so sure if I want to go there. itis alla bout the people for me, after all.

But yeah, as you can guess from the kitty - araland is reasonably sunny at the moment.

Bleh

So after work i walked to blanchardstown and went shopping with Ultzi. I bought an ugly big black hat from JC Penney's, but dude - no way am I wearing baseball caps, and I seriously can;t do shades so... A hat. i believe it is the uglist hat on earth but... I can manage.

I came to the city, had somne food, am now at the net cafe.a slo picked up the tix for Ensiferium..r eally, it is kind of amusing that I am going to sww a FInnish bvand in Ireland but.. I

HOLY HELL. I jsut won an easter egg. the net cafe handed everyone a tiny ticket and they held a draw and I have a HUGE easter egg of chocolate goodness! THis is GOOD karma!

Now where was I.. ah yeah. what I have been up to. i have the ticket for the gig now / going there tomorrow, doros are 7.30 and the first band is hitting the stage at 8. I have also been invited to sit outside and drink and eat with the workmates but.. i think i am skipping that one. cause i am not relaly feeling up to that sort of at hing right now cause i will sut drink too much and.. yeah. I would be totally dead by the time the gig ends around midight and I.. I don;t relaly know, tbh.

hat I want to do, is gto go to Dominion. but... i am not sure i i can deal with i right now. I could facr th boi - that is not a roblem. the problem is that I have said all this time that te reason i go to DOminion is the people, not as much the usic (although I admit, i have gotten addicted to dancing to it) and.. i don;t relaly know, are there any people there, who will actually elcome my company, especiallyt hat late since certain people have told me they are not going to be there long...

ye, ia m afraid. and yes, i am letting my brain overanalyze, put thins into weird shapes. a part of m feels like... i haev lsoet a "spot int he sun" - like the fact that ys ocial circle seems to be shifting away from the "Old guard" of sorts - the peeps who have bene going there for ages, who have a connection and status i suppose, prominence - and this makes me vaguely annoyed. I mean, I have no particular desire to be part of an in/crowd, it is more the whole "so what exactly did gt me off with these people" - the fact that all it took was one "relationship" and I use that term loosely gone sour.

I don;t ereally know. I suppose the one person i don;t want to face atm is M - and I haev NO idea if she will be there. and that makes me feel uncomfortable, on more levls than one. I mean.. i know there will be people there that I am on friendly terms with.Hell, there will be at last one rather damn good friend there. (some people jsut seem to crashland to those spots for me) and.. yeah. I feel like all this has kind o shattered what I felt about Dominion - the "i can be here, be myyself" thing. not happening nay longer I think.

woah, ramblier than i thought I would be. but, yeha, tomorrow Ensiferium & the other bands, then I don;t know. ight go to Brux, might go o D, I don;t know. might jsut grab one of the guys from one of the bands for a shag - I jusyt don;t relaly know. *sigh*

... add to this my mother being a total cunt, btw, and lack of money again cause i suck, and you havewhy I am not having that good of a day in some ays.

Oh! efore I forget.. paul bloody James asked me about the band thing. *shaeks head* that one as a GREAT moment of squee for me.

Earlyish saturday...

So, yea, I ma not going out with the workmates.. can;t take another bout of that. so, what I want to know is what to do on sat - anyone up for anything? and also, wtf should I wear...

Feel free to entertain me, people.