Urgh

[arabwel]

So, recap of today. I habve a sinus infection, a sore tooth, pink eye, possibly angina or whatever that is in English, and on top of that, they cut off my phone due to unpaid bills.

Oops.

and that's not all. the fucking doc I saw today about keeping the money sflowing? Dear God she made me want to scream. she actually ahd the gall to suggest Id'd go to the effing ward. I felt more cornered and fucking ready to bolt or tear something apart than I have in ages - dear God but I wnated to scream. their ethical duty to see me get better and not be sent to early retirement - yeah rigght. 'shudders*

she was not pleased to heart hat i am off to Briutland, but I am secure for another six months. ther eis going to be a meeting, to which I was cordially invited *snort, involving a lot of people.. the people who give me my disability, the social services,t he nice people who pay the jobless, the doc at the health center... that sort of a thing. I am SO not looking forward to it.

the gist of it? they are forcing me to try to "get better" aka go to school or somesuch. can we say no. fucking. way!

amusingly enough, the one thing she kept harping on about is my sleep schedule - which is, as I like to say, perfectly n9ormal for someone whose "Job" is writing, with people who live on another continent. Bleh.

I am going to write morre pr0n now, I think. And still hoping for someone to give the Lordi/Awa/Dima thing a look about if it works or not before I post.

Comments

[ariskari.livejournal.com]

Sinus infection is of the suck. And I seriously hope you don't have angina (unless it means something different and less scary in Finnish, and they I still hope you don't have it because other medical problems suck too) because that is even more Not Good.

[navigatorsghost.livejournal.com]

*snuggles!*

Can look at that thing for you if you want - email it to me?

[rifumi.livejournal.com]

Well, I was just wondering. Is your therapist qualified, at all? Or is she just some communal psychologist who is winging therapy at the side? If latter is the case, as I suspect it is, I urge you to find a real, qualified therapist. For that you would probably have to move to a bigger city, though. Which would only help, I am sure, since the town you live in sounds like a real shithole, if you pardon my language. As long as you are under 26, you can get a good therapist to see you with minimal cost, courtesy of Kela.

[cutedeadgirl.livejournal.com]

Gawd don't you just hate Kela and other gov agencies? I have been without money since early this year, because I am 2not disabled enough" thanks to the one stupid asshole who I bet didn't even read all the info (info they got cause they sent me to extensive testing they paid for that took some months few times a week). Never mind that I can just about walk once more now not to mention all the other shit.

I swear these people will do anything to keep disabled people getting anything. I hope they will all get really sick later in their lives and be denied assistance. Horrible thing to wish on someone else, but they should get the taste of what it's like since they are governing over our lives with no seeming conscience.

*hugs* I'd like to say it will work out, but with them all... it's pretty 50/50.