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Jun. 24th, 2007 04:43 am
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Is tere someting in the water right now? Cauuse tonight was.. interesting.

- ad a blast at Dominion
- Saw Stuart. Am anoyed at Stuartt becuase he made a joke that led me to believe we'd spend the enight together. Hnstead he buggered off when was talkng to the DJs afterwards.

- Seem to have sorted out the CoA thing.

- Danc3ed more than in a long time. I think I am a good dancer. Any op0inions?

- Talked to Paul since he was DJIng and had a great set.

- Talked to Paul some more.

- *facepalm*

- no he did not come home with me. this time.

- Why do I think my life jsut got more interesting?
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Under ctt, a meme in FInnish.

the than hat, hmm, peachy. Except jsuty as I wrote that I gott a call from Sttjuart... I sugeghsted Pirates, and he was prewtty much "welll it wold bee abad idea vcause we qwould go see the movie and end yup having sex ansd since you fewel warmj and fuzzy and I don;t it would jsuty ewnd up making us both msierable"£ *herugs* Which is reasomnable. will probably se ehim tomorrow at Dominion, then. *Shakes head* Also, massive "offtt£" atht he "I;m too old for you" part. Seriously.,

#h,a nd it seems to be impossibnnle to find Millennium by FLA in DUblin. curses. I don;t suppose anyone out there could, ah, pint me to YSI or Sendspavce or somesuch link hat might ho0ld said album>? *grin*


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Jun. 20th, 2007 07:24 pm
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Who wants tto get me a permanent acvcount? :P

Also, coffee with sttuart went.. relaively well. I think. Nort sure. *shakes head* when a gy starts to remind you of agent sands, it maybe a time tot sdstepnback. As it urns outt, he apparently jsut enjoys talkjing to me and is no warmfuzzyfeely owards me. (And expressly denies anything like lov ea th a firstt sight. thank God for that) and it was. intteresting.

Afdter that I ewrnt to the St. george's arcade and tran into david.. poked about with him for a bit, had a quick bite to wat and then headed to see the nice doctor peoples. more leave. *shakes head)* ouchy hand.

I feel a bit wierded out. I enjoyed spending time eitth Dacid as much as I enjoyed spending time with Stuart, despite the factr that I have a crush opn stuartt and not david.. Ii think David is annoyiongly pretenrtious and... whiny *shakes head* and his manner, well/.... "hemmetin aija on pahempi neitti k mina" describes it. not translatting.

incldentally, got my eyebrows done, rtoo. No idea why.., and bought the memoirs sof an ex nun. this should be fun :D

Now, vegging out shall commence.

(h, and weekedn is cancelled due to bad weather. I am therefore available to have fun *g*
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If you are against small kittens being skinned and used for hats, post this sentence in your livejournal.

If you're some kind of kitten-hating hat-loving monster, don't bother. You fiend.




(In other news, i spndt a very confusing 20 minutes on the phone with Sttuart, skipped work due to teh ired and the fact that my wrist is KILING me, and have so much chinese leftovgeers there#'s no words for it. Stuart ois a very confuusing person. *shakes head*)
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Soi am going to see a mnoview with Stuart.

*dies*
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Wel, last nght was fun. S ok, blisers aren;t bt ootherwise,w as fun. Enjooyued Dominion, had fun talking to people I ghaven;t sene in a god wile...

Googleboy? You still haver your stuffings inside, this is unaccepable.More hugs, dammit :P

I seem to havbe kind of accidentally walked away with someone;s phone numbner and a crush. *shakes head* do hope i mightt be able to see him again soon...

(Oh.,a dnas it turns out, the asshole magent? So damn accurate. the guy frorm last week';s friday that i thoght to be a bit arrogant? Apparently banned from dominion duue to some rather unaccweptable behaviour. *shakes head* )

typical weekend here.
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So, yestrererday..... went to the munch. Enjoyed my time there. saw lots of the lovely people I know, from G to CHicken Lady and Gorgeous B, and so forth. was a lovely time to haqng out and b;lather.... and then heading out around half eleven. One of the guys and his wife gave me a ride to D, which was goodness.

At D, it wS V. Dead. COnnor wwas DJingf,. so the music was good to dance to at least in my opinion, but there was such a dearth of peoeple. Lots of visitors., like these two goregeous peoples from Germany.... And, a v. nice fella from Seattle whose e/mail addressI now have. I intend to keep in ttouch with him since eventually I have to visit sister and I want to know where to go to have fun. (and gett thee mind out of the gutter, he's happily married. My type, yes, but married and not a sleazebag)

It got a bit etter later.. more people showed up, I hung out with Zoi and Liz and David - although I did ignore him for a bit cause I was not int he mood for anything like thatt, not really. apparently neither was he so we parted in friendly ways.

So yeah, an okay night. (Except., apparently there is issues wih my conversion tto CoA and this upsets me) Even with everything. and oh, must note that there was a gurest DJ and his name was Arthur. I asked, you know, because I didn;t want to call him the genericc guest DJ #2354234533455

COnnor still owes me Military Fashipon Show, damn ti... He mightt have playued something else by the band but I don;t know, I don;t know any 9of their songs. He di d also play something |Jake requested.... It was such a shame you weren;t there, Googleboy - you two would have gotten along famously when it comes to music. (as in, he scribbled down a few vague requestsa, amongst which were Skinny Puppy and Fronttline Assembly ;P) Oh well, next time he is in Dublin....

oh, and my charger died on me so I won;lt be reachable by phone until tonight when I am getting a new one from G.

Love you guys,

*sigh*

May. 21st, 2007 02:46 pm
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sdo i am doing a buit better now. less shaken. workis myurder - we hasd 14%abandon today. &*shuddr* 34 abandoned calls. and I know I was to blame for some fo them at one point when I fucked up...

But, i did take more than 50 calls. I feel proud of msyelf. 49 logged tickets and I know there were a few attaches there.

So maybe even if my TL now thinks I am an utter freaking twit, I will not have that bad of a track record.

*sighj* JJust, feel so damned annoyeda t a lot of thins. found out on sunday that why, yes, saxon did end up at eamon Doran's and Brux after the damn gig. so if I had stuck atround.. maybe things had gone hella differently. WHo knows, maybe instead of mispalced confessions I would have ended up shagging Doug scarrat... or jsutr making an utter fool out of myself. (what IS it with me and saxon guitarists? first my overwhelming urge to feed Graham cookies, then my sudden outta the blue urge to most definitely bed Doug Scarrat. (He was fun to flirt with. and have one of his picks now. *snicker* i am sure he was laughing his ass off by the time they finally left the stage. and seriously, had we been able to figure out that code for the backstage door for real before ecurity threw us out.... :P)

but I digress. i am still upset about not bveing able to see them liek that - cause if that had happnd, then a lot of other things would not have. or maybe they would have happened differently. *Shakes head*

but.. right now> I am jsut going "Bah!" at it - because I know I an one day meet them.. and it will not be from the positon of an addkled fangirl, dammit. (And I am a slutty fangirl, not a groupie)

In other news, i think I have an UTI and couple of infected wounds. need to see the doctor on thursday, as usual.

i feel like opening up, yeah, but not on lj at tyhe moment. or myspace. o guys, if you want to know wtf is going on, poke me on yahoo or aim or google. msn is the one thing that doe snto work for me unless I am at work.

Gnuh

May. 20th, 2007 12:47 pm
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Araland is a bad place at the moment.

Saxon fuckinbg rocked, though.

CHrrist I need to stop drinking vodka.

that's all.

Blather!

May. 17th, 2007 09:15 am
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Happy Ascension day, as a restult I am doing practically nothing today at work. Instead after work I am going shopping with the nice German boy, ad tonight... SAXON! *ddies* Also,t alked to cute girl from Swedish team. She has apaprently met Biff once *g* much envy there :P SUCH a magnificent bastard...

Duidn;t do much yesterday. aka, did nothing relaly. got 8 hours of sleep - omg at that. Won;t sleep much cause of the gig and the Temepest radio show... I know, bad Ara. And yes, going out with cute German boy on tueesday was a blast *g* we had a lovely time int he park, and the munch was good, too. Believe I did gain some new friends, too :D

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May. 10th, 2007 04:31 pm
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So I got some important stuff sorted out and the rest of today is fgoing to involve packing and headdesking about how to get this all sorted out, just purely transportwise. *shakes head* tbh this is scaring me a lot, making me kind of... shiver and wish I had someone to give a hand becuase this is jsut, not somethign I can figure out how to handle. *shakes head*

In other news, well,a fter I sdsorted thing sout I had time for a short stroll of Temple bar and saw a few familiar people. including assomeone I have figured out I have a crush on, and this made me think how different crush is from more serious feelings. When I have a crush on somone - when i see them, my heart skips a beat, I feeel silly, if they pay attention to me I feel warm and a bit giddy and I have a silly feeling even after they go away. and it doesn;t hurt, it doesn;t matter if they are taken or not or anything like that - it is jsut good stuff.

when igt gets into serious emotions, then the pain comes. because there's an intense desire for more - not physically, not really, that is more of the crush spectrum, but.. to be able to have, and it hurts when I can;t, it's a lot less giddy, it is a quiet happy, and a hurt afterwards. *shakes head*

.. why am I thinking about this again?

ah yeah. becuase some men jsut look sickeningly good in leather and make me feel all sorts of silly.

*twiddle*

May. 4th, 2007 11:40 am
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Jsut another day at work. With luck, I DO have next week off, cause the fucking vacation request is still pending. If Id o? Well, I might think i am wasting my vacatrion days 0- but I am not. What I am doing is making bloody sure I am a) able to move and b) getting recovered from all this stress and c) finallys orting allt he tax shit out of the way as well as I can manage.

tah t is,l if they would jsut get the time off sorted. Bah, relaly.

I have no idea what I want to fddo tonight. One part of me is all, ooh, I know, Brux and partying but.. I don't think I feel up for that. not today. another part is "go home, curl up, sleep" but I know I don't wnat to do that, either. I juS... I don't know what I want. Spend time with people. spend time having fun. just, not the way uit has been lately.

I jsut want to have fun for a nigth and not worry.. But I know that I will nto stop dreading going home alone and spending another night feeling like hell - and as a result, i will fret and everything will once again be all sorts of messed up.

guess the boi was useful. having him, the way he was.. kinda there, m,ade it so I didn; have to fret. i could jsut have fun, knowing i had a decent change of not being on my own. I thought someone liked me *shrugs* and it kept the loneliness at bay, for a while. gues snow it is back to square one - need to acquire someone else.

*facepalm*

May. 1st, 2007 09:16 am
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Googleboy? Sorry about calling you a bitch. Elegy? Sorry about excessive cling. Hoar? Hope you ARE safe. I should probably apologize for a lot of other peeps about text messages - I wonder how many of them got through anyway? - that I sent last night when... I got overtly txthappy. (none sent to the bopi,t ho. proud of self!)

so after work, mongolian BBQ. ficve bowls. of the stuff.l If I w\s stillf rettibng about my weight, now would be the time. But, since I have decided to screw it, for the msot part.... screw it indeed. Was awesome.a nd, ice cream for dessert! :D

after that... yweah, going fom one place to another getting progressively drunker, etc. Texting people lots of silly thhings. Left voworkers intending to grabt he first nitelink.. went to one of the pubs intemple bar, intending to jsut get a coke and make sure the trip home would be more comfortable..

yeah tright.t ried to pick up a random Italian and failed. he disappeared on me. twice. so.. yeah, not a happy Ara.

slept ok, but int he morning was confronted by roommates. not good. and now? I am SO fucked, need to get 150 euros I don;t HAVE by tonight cause of the fact that today is May 1st, the finnish bank transfers have not gonwee through so.. yeah. &*shakes head8 this is jsut, so not of the good.

... i hate this. SO much.

*whimper*

christ....

Apr. 27th, 2007 08:29 am
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So I jsut ha d a major scare. My boss wanted to talk to me, about the fact that I had a VERY bad stat for one day last weke. day I was fullya t work and I had NO idea wtf it could have been - and I had a great tlaking to.

then I managed to sort it out. I had only 5 calls logged for me for that day - and that made me go "Ok, that nmust have been it|@ and then a coworker piped in noting it was the day I had actually been logging calls/ticks on her phone cause I could not access the workstation until afternoon - something I ha completely forgotten about. *facepalm*

bnut yeah,t aht was a scare.a nd I got chewed out for my tix management. Need to ger better about it.a lthough I do know that on a good day? I am one of the best we have. I have NO idea what my average is - looking forward to getting the stats for this week since this is the first weked I have done on my own... even if e/mail has fucked me over.. but, looks like this is a good week, about that

christ, i need to go out tonight. (shakes head( am already fretting abotu what to wear - today, i AM going home to change clothes before I head out. Cause i feel like looking about as hot as humanly possible. which i cannot do at work for obvious reasons.

and I will NOT be bringing anyone home, dammit.

(ETA: damn it damn it damn it damn it I am not supposed to make decisions liek that and THEN get an offer form a hot guy that involves, um, lots of lovely things *facepalm*)

ETA2: http://youtube.com/watch?v=wTKQ_i9Jspg *dies* PJ! GLitter! Long hair! :D :D :D :D go, watch

*hums*

Apr. 26th, 2007 02:06 pm
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State of teh Ara at the moment is: CHeery but tired. I am, for once,
not depressed. jsut... cheery, depsite the fact taht I feel like
hell physically and te fact that work is KILLING me. Work is aking me
spazzy and completley falling apart-y, I can't deal with this-y... and
it still does not depress me. it is jsut good old fashiopned stress,
not the end of the world or emotional upheavalage.

Major Stress of he Moment? Would seem to have been lifeted. Now if
COnnor's landlord sayeth the ok, then a certain German redheaded
menace who abuses my access to my phone will be moving in to a nice
hole in the... wall? Ground? Somewhere dark and hole-y anyway, and I
get her shoebox! :D and yes, it si a shoebox. I have had bigger
bedrooms than that apartment is. But, it will be mine, all mine.anD it
has interwebs! And kitchenette! And a window! And it is half an hour's
walk from Dominion, and so forth. itr is freakihly aweosme. (as is the
redheaded menace, obvioulsy)

if everything goes awesomely, I get the keys next tuesday and haul
stuff on wednesday. Cross fingers, toes and applicable appendages for
us! :D

I relaly have no plan for today,. I will probably jsut go home, and
sleep. and possibly pack. hell, i KNOW I have to pack. i am jsut, not
very good at it. But I will be working on it, and also working on
picking out an outftt for Friday.

Cruxshadows. Cruxshadws are of the awesome. And I will be going to see
them! :D It would seem taht at least 2/3rds of our merry bunch will be
descending to VL,. have not asked Zoi yet but think she might not come
since the tix are pricey.. which sucks. but do hope I will get to see
her saturday.. miss her.

I need that sleep tomorow night.. christ, can't remember the last time
I slept more than 6 hours. *shakes head* yes, i am aware of just how
fucking unhealthy this sort of a thing is.

then again, according to the IBM doc my blood pressure is "perfect"
saw him to make sure my back is ok, and my eye is ok. burtst a vein
last weekend and didn't notice until monday when it was pointed out
to me... and perfect blood pressure is a great excuse for pizza for lunch! (which, incidentally,w as spent tlaking to the cute irish boy *shakes head* I think he is crushable. Not sure if it will go anywhere, kind of don't even want it to, cause, coworker, eek, but... pretty! and nice. and fun. and cute. And makes me all silly in the tummy and not in the "Oohj, i want to jump him!" but in the "Ooh, he lookd at me!" way. *shaeks head again*

oh, and Googleboy? Sorry to tell you this but you don;t give the best
hugs in Dublin. Grover does. You two need introducing. *g* I hope that
can be arranged when Nodis brings his fuzzy blue ass home from Leeds
:D

*hugs people randomly and falls asleep on them*

... and my manager is jsut braiding someone's hair almost right next to me. *shakes head* God, I love this job.
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Apr. 13th, 2007 03:22 pm
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What will ara be up to today?

- going to see a girl about a room around seveniosh, in Rathmines.
- going to Brux afterwards. (COmpany welcomne as always, you have my number people!)

And.. yeah, at Brux i kind of hope to see TD&S. If I do.. well, I have no idea actually. a part of me wnats to ask him if he'd like to go out with me - as in, on a date. *fascepalm* Because I seriously want to know what makes tthat guy tick - he is bugging me, being all sortws of.... TD&S-y. I want to know what makes him ticvk. iuf he really is a complete dfik, or if he is jsut shy and solcially inept. I don;t know, maybe this is thew worst [possible thing I could do but.. I want to know what mnakes him tick.

I remember seeing him at D, the first time I went there - and late being told by M that he wwas bad news, etcetera. And noew I feel like a twit for actually listening to her baecayuse.. (I am not supposed o be prejudiced like that. I want to make up my own mind abpout people. and as far as I can tell thus far? He is not what I was told he wpould be. Hell, I actually have had someone unashamedly sing his praises at me! (which was after I was like "hell I am so shattered byt hat guy I liked that I am haldff tempted to gicve starewy a go.." "W£ho.." ">. that guy, hoilipo.." "PHilip! hew is a freined of mine nad shy and intelloingent and nice and etc and if he;s the one for you, go for it!"

... seriously, you can probaby imagine why he bugs gthe hell out of me byu being so damn myusterious.

the eworst thing he cahn do is turn me down, right?

meeeh

Apr. 10th, 2007 08:16 pm
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still angsty. it fucking sucks.

i hate this kind of angst. i hate it. i hate feeling like.. lik there is no hope for me. that to have what i want, i would have to stop being msyelf. taht ia m not good enough/.

why can;t i ever meet a nice guy who woul actaully want to date me? I hate this. i jsut so fucking hate it.

eta: go listen to Another day on Tempest's Myspace, dear god I love it. seriously.

Bleh

Apr. 6th, 2007 05:44 pm
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So after work i walked to blanchardstown and went shopping with Ultzi. I bought an ugly big black hat from JC Penney's, but dude - no way am I wearing baseball caps, and I seriously can;t do shades so... A hat. i believe it is the uglist hat on earth but... I can manage.

I came to the city, had somne food, am now at the net cafe.a slo picked up the tix for Ensiferium..r eally, it is kind of amusing that I am going to sww a FInnish bvand in Ireland but.. I

HOLY HELL. I jsut won an easter egg. the net cafe handed everyone a tiny ticket and they held a draw and I have a HUGE easter egg of chocolate goodness! THis is GOOD karma!

Now where was I.. ah yeah. what I have been up to. i have the ticket for the gig now / going there tomorrow, doros are 7.30 and the first band is hitting the stage at 8. I have also been invited to sit outside and drink and eat with the workmates but.. i think i am skipping that one. cause i am not relaly feeling up to that sort of at hing right now cause i will sut drink too much and.. yeah. I would be totally dead by the time the gig ends around midight and I.. I don;t relaly know, tbh.

hat I want to do, is gto go to Dominion. but... i am not sure i i can deal with i right now. I could facr th boi - that is not a roblem. the problem is that I have said all this time that te reason i go to DOminion is the people, not as much the usic (although I admit, i have gotten addicted to dancing to it) and.. i don;t relaly know, are there any people there, who will actually elcome my company, especiallyt hat late since certain people have told me they are not going to be there long...

ye, ia m afraid. and yes, i am letting my brain overanalyze, put thins into weird shapes. a part of m feels like... i haev lsoet a "spot int he sun" - like the fact that ys ocial circle seems to be shifting away from the "Old guard" of sorts - the peeps who have bene going there for ages, who have a connection and status i suppose, prominence - and this makes me vaguely annoyed. I mean, I have no particular desire to be part of an in/crowd, it is more the whole "so what exactly did gt me off with these people" - the fact that all it took was one "relationship" and I use that term loosely gone sour.

I don;t ereally know. I suppose the one person i don;t want to face atm is M - and I haev NO idea if she will be there. and that makes me feel uncomfortable, on more levls than one. I mean.. i know there will be people there that I am on friendly terms with.Hell, there will be at last one rather damn good friend there. (some people jsut seem to crashland to those spots for me) and.. yeah. I feel like all this has kind o shattered what I felt about Dominion - the "i can be here, be myyself" thing. not happening nay longer I think.

woah, ramblier than i thought I would be. but, yeha, tomorrow Ensiferium & the other bands, then I don;t know. ight go to Brux, might go o D, I don;t know. might jsut grab one of the guys from one of the bands for a shag - I jusyt don;t relaly know. *sigh*

... add to this my mother being a total cunt, btw, and lack of money again cause i suck, and you havewhy I am not having that good of a day in some ays.

Oh! efore I forget.. paul bloody James asked me about the band thing. *shaeks head* that one as a GREAT moment of squee for me.

*whistles*

Apr. 6th, 2007 08:48 am
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So, when your day at work which starts 3 hours later than usual and is all of 4 hours long pretty muh starts with your manager going "top ' the morning" and "you (me+Ultzi) look like you didnöt behave last nigtght", how good has the day started?

Pretty damn good.

We got to tell him "well, it is funny how the garda don't speak finnish..."

Ya, we had a fun tiem yesterday after work. we sat at the Liffey boardwalk, drank, drank some more, talked, jsut hung out and enjoyed outrselves in general. Obviously got wasted, actually threw uip on myself - cough + drinking = can cause awkward s ituations - and then at the ned of the night, I buggered off to Brux.

So i also found out that FOr some reason M wants me to stay the fuck aay from me. i donät know why - I have no idea what I ahve fdone. I supect it has to do witht he boi but... I don't know. and it hurts. Thank God I was surrounded by friends - not jsut the coworkers whose attempts at cheering me up usually fail miserably cause they jsut don't operate on the same level I do, even though hey do try.. but, you know, others. (and incidentally after nicking my phone, my coworkers gree ont he awesomeness of certain people who sent me long texts... blood twits, but I like them anyway!)

But yeah, we drank, had fun,a ndparted when it got chilly.. I made it to brux, and went home with a nice guy who had seen me at Dominion before and kind fo talked to me when i hit the batr the second time. CUte enough, weas a daaaanmn good shag, made e coffee int he morning and I still need to give him his t-shirt back. GOt his name but not his #, oh well. I will probably see hima gain sometime, and when i do, i wouldn't mind a repea performance. Nice, uncomplöited sex wih someon with a personality I could NOT stand more than tiny amounts of time... well ok, not personality, sjtu, um flaky occult!goth who tries to do the whole intellectual and deep thing. Umm... nooo, not really anything beyond a good shag there.

.. and it is amusin that everyone in my team knows what i did cause they basically TOLD me to do it - pick up someone compeltely random. I stills ay i ddin't do that - he was no too random, we know some of the smae people, at least by sightl and yes, our team has goosd spirit liek that - we can go tdrinking, tlak about everything andd anything from sex to... err, sex relaly, we talk wayt oo much about that... but yeah. we rock. I do like them and donöt mind hanging out with them. the fria i didn't, well, it also involved others I do not like int he team -t e older set,t he ones who hate ireland and are POd allt he time and are not really enjoying it here.

tonight it is jsut going home for me, i think, to sleep a ton more. And then.. well,. probably more lseep. tomorrow, it is the gig at Voodoo Lounge, then probably brux - I am not int he mood for Dominion. ell ok, so i am but.. jsut, not so sure if I want to go there. itis alla bout the people for me, after all.

But yeah, as you can guess from the kitty - araland is reasonably sunny at the moment.

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