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First off: Laptop charger ded. So I can't play Avengers Alliance at home. WAAAH! (I love that game. You get total of 3 bonuses playing with Clint and Natasha - Agents of SHIELD, Assemble! and... Frenemies. :D)

In more avengersy things, I have two big-ass AU ideas that I am contemplating...

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Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] electricdruid at The fiasco continues

ACTA in a Nutshell –

What is ACTA?  ACTA is the Anti-Counterfeiting Trade Agreement. A new intellectual property enforcement treaty being negotiated by the United States, the European Community, Switzerland, and Japan, with Australia, the Republic of Korea, New Zealand, Mexico, Jordan, Morocco, Singapore, the United Arab Emirates, and Canada recently announcing that they will join in as well.

Why should you care about ACTA? Initial reports indicate that the treaty will have a very broad scope and will involve new tools targeting “Internet distribution and information technology.”

What is the goal of ACTA? Reportedly the goal is to create new legal standards of intellectual property enforcement, as well as increased international cooperation, an example of which would be an increase in information sharing between signatory countries’ law enforcement agencies.

Essential ACTA Resources

  • Read more about ACTA here: ACTA Fact Sheet
  • Read the authentic version of the ACTA text as of 15 April 2011, as finalized by participating countries here: ACTA Finalized Text
  • Follow the history of the treaty’s formation here: ACTA history
  • Read letters from U.S. Senator Ron Wyden wherein he challenges the constitutionality of ACTA: Letter 1 | Letter 2 | Read the Administration’s Response to Wyden’s First Letter here: Response
  • Watch a short informative video on ACTA: ACTA Video
  • Watch a lulzy video on ACTA: Lulzy Video

Say NO to ACTA. It is essential to spread awareness and get the word out on ACTA.

Via Tumblr

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Nov. 20th, 2010 08:25 am
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You know, i weanted to post about the epic mess that is currently all over a certain snark community. But frankly, the situation renders me completely speechless.

*shakes head*

I hate people so much. and by people I mean the idiot who showed up to spew his vile asshattery all over the place. I am mostly just annoyed at the pile-up. Ok, so a little POd too but thats my "thou shalt not fuck with my friends or I shall feed thee thy knuckles in a soup" side coming out.

In other news, I have a phone again, can access FB again, and so on.

What did I miss?
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for various reasons, am not going to mera luna this year. (unless someone can borrow me 300 euro or so? didnt think so...)

So instead have a meme.


1. If you'd like to play along, reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. You then list (and upload or link to the video, if you feel like it) 5 (6, 7) songs that start with that letter.
3. Then, as I'm doing here, you'll post the list to your journal with the instructions. Easy peasy!

I got slapped with an E by [livejournal.com profile] raisedbymoogles :D

And i iz laxy. no links. do your own work :P

Everything Counts - Depeche Mode
Electrosluts Extraordinaire - Faderhead
Eloise - The Damned
Epitaph - Front Line Assembly
End - The Cure
Electronic Warfare - Apoptygma Berzerk
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Under the cut, roughly 3300 word report of WGT.

Enjoy!



WGT: Day 1, Thursday:

So I left Dublin with [livejournal.com profile] silicondragon who was on his way to Prague. We made it to the airport - after less than 2 hours of sleep for me -and went our separate ways.
On the plane I saw +plenty familiar people - Including that one guy I run into EVERYWHERE like Leeds, Utrecht, WGT and London, someone else I know, and a few other people I only knew by sight.

Why yes, we were all in the same train to Leipzig too.

I found my friendly accommodation lady soon enough st the station, and headed to the house where I had a room all to my ownsies for the duration. I got changed, and headed off to Agra to get me tickets...

Only to lose euro 200 on my way there. Suffice to ay, I as NOT Amused by this. *sigh* this set the tone of this trip, somewhat...

After a quick trip back, some angst, and regrouping, I did go get my tickets and went to the Dark Flower. I had never been there before, and I enjoyed it - one of the DJs was a Darkling! so we had a quick hug and hello moment. (I also may sort of have left a message to be played in the show. I,, um, sort of am too scared to listen to the podcast to find out what I said. Yet. XD

Evenrtually Is tumbled home, and slept.

Day 2: Friday I'm not in love

Friday! I woke up, got ready, and headed out eventually. Chose some nice pink-black bondage pants and a Sisters of Mercy t-shirt :D at this point, my phone stopped working so alas, my plans to meet up with [livejournal.com profile] macpain did not really work out. at this junction anyway... But, I did meet up with Inma! the Spanish girl I knew form Dublin and had missed like CRAZY, and her friends form Spain also.

After some food and a quick spin of Agra shopping area of doooom , where I got a bag and was tempted by goggles, we went to see Zeromancer.

Oh boy, Zeromancer. I recognized 3 songs, thought "this is a total rip-off of X"#a few times, and nearly drowned in my own drool. Not a bad show! :D

From this, I ran to Werk II where I had never been before, for Cinderella Effect. I have to say, it is a great venue.. and damn but Cinderella Effect? Blew me away. they were EXCELLENT, and I am so glad I know they exist! :D

Afterwards, Off I went at his point to see Kirillan camera. One of the bands I was really waiting to see. I made it in about halfway through Conjure One's set, and I was quite impressed by them as well. Kirillian camera? now they were amazing. I am not very familiar with them but it was a very solid gig and I enjoyed myself a lot.
Afterwards, I talked with this one German bloke whose phone I had asked to borrow, and suffice to say once we'd had our minds blown by Brendan Perry, we, ah, took off together. Brendan Perry, for the record, was amazing. It was one of those “wait how can it be over yet two hours totally did not pass!” kind of gigs :D

.. what is it with me and Germans at festivals?

Saturday: WORLD GOTH DAY! :D

So after I wake up in the camping area with no clue how i got there with the worm kind of wristband, I went back to my accommodation.. and realized, I do not in fact have the keys. Yes, I had lost my fucking keys. This caused a lot of trouble for me later on since I never got a replacement. But I did, in fact, eventually get in, and a get myself ready for day 2 of bands and goodyness. For the WGD; I was wearing pinstripe form head to toe :D

First band of the day was Spanish death rock: Los carniectros Del Nostre who were angry, energetic, and fun. I had a great time - met up with Inma as well as some other people who were friends of friends there. And it was amazing. I also saw a cool jacket with the legend "too old to die young" worn by a guy with a grey 'hawk.

Next stop for me was to run, run like the wind! to Werk 2 for.. Gene Loves Jezebel. Who, as it turns out, were stuck in traffic so could not play. Boo. So Instead I saw Joy/Disaster who had just made it there, and had not been able to play their own slot. They were excellent, as it turns out. As was Escape With Romeo.

Also at this time? I did, in fact, manage to hunt me down a [livejournal.com profile] macpain and his prettier half! :D It was so shiny to meet him finally. :D I love meeting my friends from the internets, after all :D

They were not the only ones I ran into - I also ran into the German bloke from Summer Darkness who was the reason I woke up in den Haag more than once! XD it was nice to see him again, and no not like that you perverts.

We watched Escape with Romeo together, and then I , I headed off to Agra - for here, there was X marks the Pedwalk to see. I saw one of my Spanish friends but unfortunately, my attempt to locate the rest of them failed. And I did see someone else but did not get a chance to talk to them before the show started... I had a decent spot on the left side of the stage and stayed there dancing for a few sons - unfortunately. however.. it was kinda.. underwhelming. Now don’t get me wrong, i like the music but.. something was missing. I think the venue was too big for them. Combine that with me feeling a bit tired, I went outside to have a few smokes and sit down and rest for Leather Strip.

At this point, I hear a shout "Oi Finland!"" and who is it but if not my favourite tall not-so-dark-but-very-handsome German from my favourite German EBM outfit - Olaf form Tyske Ludder. We had a nice chat and I hope I did not make too much of an arse out of myself. It was established hat there are no Irish EBM fans and apparently I don’t count. (the fact that i had to actually seriously think about people who like actual EBM and not glow stick industrial did not help... Mythical creatures. Like unicorns. ) we talked about bands and stuff and who we were planning to see and had seen.. we apparently missed each other barely at Werk 2 because he was there for the original joy/disaster slot and did see Luxury Stranger whom I missed... Great minds think alike XD

Never saw ‘em before, and maybe because of that, Leather Strip was fucking amazing. AMAZING. I didn’t mosh for most of the gig - I was happily dancing way further back because the moshtpit? Was a maelstrom of insane amounts of momentum and i was wearing way too many clothes. XD In the end, I did make it there for the encore and it nearly killed me XD (fun fact: I got thrown into someone I have met officially once when someone introduced us at last WGT, then at Nitzer Ebb when I was slammed into her in the mosh pit ,and now? again, pit slammage) had to tell her nope, no mutual friend. Boo. (Him not being there kind of annoyed me tbh - I missed someone to squeee to who appreciates the finer points of old school EBM) also, there were drunken loud Finns XD One of the best, if not the best gig at this fest - even if Claus did not come to the barrier at the end like I hoped so I could have given him the same treatment as I did to Andy laPlegua last year.


After Leather Strip ended... I ran like the fucking WIND to Werk 2. Because gene Loved Jezebel had the late-ass set because they could in fact make it for 00.20. I missed about half of their show but it was still amazing <3 I enjoyed it a lot :D

Eventually I staggered out. Did not see any nice Swiss people or nice German people who had said they'd be there... which was b00. but I made my way to When We Were young, where I.. kind of collapsed. but I enjoyed the music. XD Eventually, around 8 am, I staggered out and back to my accommodation via a hearty breakfast in town <3

Sunday: More fun!

After a quick bit of sleep, got dressed up again and headed out. (Black jeans, EBM 0- my way of life shirt) and made it to Parkbuhnen. Previous year, i got lost like crazy on my way there. this year? I was busy talking with my hosts about music until I realized I had to run to PB to make it. Now, it is only 10 minute walk or so, but I still missed the first few songs form La Magra... b00. They were quite good, and PB was hot as anything.

I aided both Out of line and Black Rain merch stalls; got a couple of compilations including the big EBM comp that Out of line has just put out. I heartily recommend everyone to go grab this. From Black Rain, one of their album samplers ridiculously cheap.

Up next was Future Trail, which was nice enough.. but the singer reminded me of Laura Voutilainen's Eurovision entry with her hair and clothes...so yeah XD

Lola Angst had a fucking ORGAN on stage and gets props for some of the best props - ha ha ha - at treffen. It was a fun gig, I did the whole bounce shriek fun fun fun thing and I enjoyed it a lot. After this, however, I evacuated to brave the scary lady in the toilets and by the time I wad out of there - epic queue is epic - it was Cephalgy on stage. Not bad, but not enough to keep me form wandering.

I saw Olaf again and finally braved to ask him to recommend something for a synth n00b. His advice? fruityloops and a midi USB keyboard. This is something I will take into consideration. I also admitted that for the biggest EBM fan in Ireland I have been a fan for such an embarrassingly short time. My first EBM album, I got 3 years ago and thought it was shit. I still think the album is kind of shite but I love the band anyway. XD (FLA – FLAvor of the Weak for those who want to know) the appeal of Millennium to a metal head-originator was again mentioned and agreed on.

I wandered off again, in search of my Spaniards. I probably as grinning like an idiot, seeing as I have that big epic crush on a certain someone that reduces me into a blushing 13 year old XD I got out, did not get lost on my way out! And then I ran to Kohlb... arghsomething zirkus. Did not find them, and got lost on my way to the damn venue. Which is embarrassing since i had been there the year before.. but alas, I had sucky directions that totally failed. But I did eventually make it there, ran in when S.P.O.C.K. came on stage with Spock's Brain playing. I ran into my Spaniards in the crowd, and had a GREAT time :D they had on superman costumes and they were so very, very FUN :D the crowd was crazy dancing shouting, laughing, throwing the Vulcan hand sign instead of the horns... I think this was probably one of the best, if not the best gig at WGT that I was at.

Next stop: Colony 5 at the same venue. And damn if it was not fun! :D they are infectiously good and hard and fun. they would be easy to dismiss as "Covenant light" but come on, they are way better than that. And i quite enjoyed them.

After Colony 5, I said goodbyes and ran off to see Modulate. Helped a cute Norwegian to get lost on he way there.. we were sot busy discussing the scene we missed the tram stop by miles. *FACEPALM* And Modulate...w ell, glow stick industrial really really REALLY Is not my cup of tea. Instead i wandered outside after I heard Skullfuck and then, wandered down the side to where they had an art installation.

OH. MY: GOD: Seriously: IS pent more than an hour there going gaga at the art - gas masks, led lights, plastic plants and terminator-predator hybrids, themes of religion and death and argh I have NO WORDS! It was the single most amazing piece of art i have seen in a VERY long time accompanied by eerie industrial - and I do mean proper, oldschool, radiators and Latin chanting type industrial. the artists, Incestum, Nilz Böhne and Schwarwel were all amazing. here is a myspace linky for you: http://www.myspace.com/sf-seelenfresser LOOK AT THE PHOTOS PEOPLE.

I was down there until I realized "oh, this morn omina must be on stage" - i caught maybe half an hour of their show and it was pretty okay. Not my cup of tea. and I could not find a t-shirt for [livejournal.com profile] elegy_of_flames :( However, I did buy myself an EBM - Old School t-shirt because dammit, I needed to defend myself from the glowsticks!

Afterwards I found out that Diary of dreams -which was on at the same time as Modulate - and Welle: Erdball - which was on the smae time as TMO - were both epic and I should have been there… So I felt pretty blargh.

I made my way to Agra where the one and only Alien Sex Fiend performed. (So I caught a good deal of Lacrimosa beforehand and talked with Finnish death rockers who wanted to know who I was and where I was from since they had never seen me in the scene.. lulz) i had a pretty good spot again on the left side for the start of it - for maybe 3, 4 songs I was right there in row 4 but then my legs started giving up on me. Boo. So I had to go and collapse. but that is one of the reasons I like Agra - even sitting on the ground at the back? I still saw a little bit, and I could hear everything in beautiful detail: My mates were right at the form and said it was fucking amazing <3

After ASF, I actually was good and stumbled home - so ok I was there at 6 in the morning but still, that is a good time to go home without any after parties at WGT XD I just - felt so tired, you know?

Monday: Oh hell not again

Monday I got dressed in a gorgeous outfit involving black and white polka dots, a black skirt, my new Old school EBM shirt and lots of nice accessories. then, off to Parkbuhenen I went.


I made it plenty in time for Golden apes and met with the Swiss contingent again. Yay! However, what happened was that there was a bit of rain. Like, whole lot of rain. So in the end i was dancing practically alone in front of the stage loving every moment of the band while being effectively in a shower. As far as I was concerned? I just had to run back to change before I went off. XD and, there is a photo of jsut HOW soaked I was - to the core, pretty much. Dripping wet and looking like a drowned kitten!"

Which I did, after I said my byes, and then ran off to see Kitty in a Casket - horror punk, and again, an amazing show at Werk ii. We are talking energetic, lovely, shiny music that just had me go all bouncebouncebouncebounce. And buy a badge and tell them they rock :D Their music was.. Infectious. I especially love their songs Zombie wannabe and Space Invaders. Besides, any band with full size upright bass on stage gets instant win points :D

After this, I headed off to Agra. Plan was, grab a quick bite to eat, shop a little, go see.. something. this ended up with: Shop - I bought goggles. GOGGLES. I feel dirty now.. and a few CDs and badges. (more compilations from Out of line, and two nice button badges. Siouxsie and FLA) then it was food,.. did I mention I lived on crepes for most of this fest? Mm, cinnamon and sugar crepe… also, I could actually order my food in German most of the time. this is progress! :D

I was going to run for something like Genevieve Pasquier or – well, something. Instead i ate in peace, got cherry wine and cheese, and ate some more before I went back to Werk 2 for Ghoultown.

My first impression? Johnny Cash doing speed with the cult. Revised impression: Johnny Cash doing speed with the cult with the Nephs and WASP passed out on the floor. Seriously - these guys were fucking AMAZING. They had a great sound, lots of energy, and they were unashamedly Texan. :D It took me a while to pick out the WASP influence -the rest was much easier to hear - but Killer in Texas made me immediately think Blind in Texas and it clicked. Did I mention these guys were damn hot, too? I had never heard of them until I was told on twitter they were shiny and damn, this was the best spur of the moment band selection I have doen in AGES.

Next stop was supposed to be the Klinik and then nurse with wound but.. guess who lost her wallet?= yeaah. *Sigh* this SUCKED SO HARD THERE ARE NO WORDS FOR IT. Instead I watched some of the Creepshow and eventually in the end, moped my way to Moritzbastei where I met my friends. Took a quick break at a friend's place to recuperate and get a bit more human with the help of food, coffee and cigarettes and then back to Moritzbastei.

I ran into the cute glowsticky Norwegian again! :D I now owe him drinks when he's over here in Dublin - I am amazed anyone would like to come here but... XD I had a great time in this after party, I did not dance, I was slowly getting into the body = broken mode but I enjoyed just sitting down, watching people pass by and soaking in the music – both the thumpy noise and all the else that was going on.

Eventually stumbled home in the morning and slept.

then got up a few hours later, settled myself out, caught a train to Berlin, read a good book on the train, panicked about money, met up with [livejournal.com profile] k1mm0 for a drink and a hug and how-are-you and then went back to the hostel to die... after having mcD's at Checkpoint Charlie. I found this to be highly ironic....

This morning, I got up, got cleaned up, went to the airport marvelling at how fucking beautiful Berlin is- was there for such a brief time and barely saw any of it but.. it is so gorgeous. No wonder so many of my friends want to live there.... then at the airport+

the security goon complimented the EBM t-shirt I wore, asked i was at Leipzig, said his GF had been there and said ASF was awesome and asked if I liked Nitzer ebb, and said he'd see me back for M’era luna. XD

One flight that was late later, i am now back in Dublin.

Can it be WGT2011 already? XD

Well, fuck

Apr. 1st, 2010 12:34 pm
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... I'm pregnant.
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So. Sometime in the near futrure I intend to ilelgally download several songs off the internet.

Whym, you ask?

YOu see - I have bought these songs legally. I downloaded them form my operator#s music store to my cell phone. and these files_ .DCF files are so full of DRM that I cannot even use them as ring tones - let alone move them to my computer or any such thing. And id I did move the hideous quality ones to my computer and convert them to mp3? this is still omg illegals.

I will illegally download thsese songd because I have already paid for them but they have not been provided to me in a satisfacttory manner. I will not buy these songs again on Amazon or Itunes, or in any other manner pay again for these specific songs.

Cause lets face it - I pay for my music. I have bought 12 physical CDs, 2 full album downloads and 20-odd Mp3 downloads since the start of 2010. and now made themistake of downloading these fucking dcf files. I measure my collection in number of albums, not gigabytes.

the lesson here is> I am willing to pay for my music. I wnat to pay for my music. and in exchange for my money, I want my music. Simple, yes?

carry on.

So...

Nov. 1st, 2009 12:55 pm
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First off. after the week form HELL which is still not entirely over - guess who may have lsot her passport, too? - yesterday was halloween at Dominion.

I was the Queen of Hearts - and yes there will be photos! - and joined a motly crew of Malice in Wonderland, zombies, and other creatures made of awesome.

Now, there is one thing I have to say now: My. Crew. Is. Awesome.

Seriously.

Who the uck are my crew, you might wonder? Well, it starts with the likes of [livejournal.com profile] davesangel, [livejournal.com profile] m3gg0ra, [livejournal.com profile] amerikamcgee and includes a ood deal of people likcertain polish maniacs who flat out asked to DJ on the same night as me.

Seriosly, thanks guys. You helped me keep my sanity with everything that was going on - with the hell week, the big guy, the other guy, losing my shit - everything. I canät tank you guys enough.

There was dancin, there was drama, i will cry moar later, but seriously guys? I love you all to pieces. Never ever forget it.

... crap

Sep. 5th, 2009 12:55 pm
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Methinks I'm sick again.

THis innesscant sneezing would seem so.

perfect timing... NOT.

Still going out tonight to, I have the rest of the week to rest!
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family claims they are too fat to work

What. the. fuck. SERIOULY.

this is the only thing going through my head here.

I have no fucking idea if I am angr at them, angry at society, disappointed, what the hell.

other than that there is too much WRONG with this for me to even start cataloguing.

Argh1

Feb. 5th, 2009 12:28 pm
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Stull no corset.

If I had not been an idiot and managed to lose the thingy with the storeäs phone number, I would callt hem already... now I jsut have to try to google them. except, i donöt remember who the hell they are XD

Typical of me. *facepalm* (if osmeone happens to remember which one of the goth shops itis it that is int he stables, int he arches actually iirc, on the same alley as hexagon, is sut a narorow room with lots a corsets and floofy skirts, do tell me...)

I jsut wnat it here by next saturday dammit!

Bah!

Dec. 7th, 2008 01:08 am
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So this is a weekend of doom. N additon to my shiny being GONE tere is the whole thing wher ei seem to have mispalced someting along the lines of 50 eur - i know it is in the room, but where?

And on top of that.. i am having the worst cough i have had in ages, a migraine, sciatica is flaring up, I have fever and my glands area lol swollen up..

and I am supposed to be in a plane to Prague in 6 hours.

w00t.

Also, yay Finland. Independent still.
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(with apologies to Rahm Emanuel)

So, right. the motherfucking e71 I have been drooling after lk a retardd puggle for ages, now?

I still don;t have the motherfucking phone.

Why_ You see, there has been drama. FIrst time I went to get it, the fucking spineless salesdroisd didn;t acept my proof of address, as if anyone in theri right mind would claima fake addres sin fucking Cabra. No seweat, fine, I jsut made sure what was needed and ame back with it next payday.

Guess what? No can do. the fucking ting had no date on it and ti was apparently a bad ting. So no phone for me.

So, come the week after tis, ia m somwhat relaly fucking pissed of and readyto start ganwing off the heads of baby bunnies when I go in. Everyting's grad.. until tey tll ,eme, out of the blue, that there#s this fucking deposit I need to pay for the phone.

Fuk that shit.

Espeally since I could not afford the deposit. So this had to wait till the next time I would et paid....

ezxept, my loelies, my boss did a it of a motherfucking suckup of legendary ages and as a result_ No fucking OT pay, no new fucking phone for me even now. cause this is ME / I don;t DO his sang up bullshit.

I am eagerly waiting to see what happens next week in this saga of Atra Getting Her Grubby Little Hands On A MotherfukingE71 and The Gadgetry Pervin That Will Follow.

Bitches.

that's all.

...

Nov. 6th, 2007 07:51 am
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woke up with second degree burns.

did not go to see Enriqyue yesterday.

In general, my mood is craptacular.

...

Sep. 22nd, 2007 06:55 pm
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My party resulted in me waking up on the other side of the city this morning.

No comment.

<3

Gnuh

May. 20th, 2007 12:47 pm
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Araland is a bad place at the moment.

Saxon fuckinbg rocked, though.

CHrrist I need to stop drinking vodka.

that's all.

UGH

May. 14th, 2007 02:06 pm
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So,t he first set pf psycho troomamtes jsut contacted mer. apparently some of my mail has been going there and they were being all snotty about "if you won;t give us a forwarding address we willd estroy it£"

Including a parcel, apparently./;

now, I was being evil - hgacve thenm the new address, but I was also evil - "We can also meet up so there's no extra cost for you" - you remember the deposit debacle. Of course, i might regret that once I stop being sicjkeningly high on mania - tbh, scared is already happening. but I won't be meeting them without backup... *shakes head*

i did in fact see the fuckers ont he bus on saturday, jsut like i had been fearing for a good while. it was oen of the reasons I was very shaken on friday and ended up being a complete mess byt he end of the night. which carried over to saturday and loed to Idiocy of the Highest order. (srsly - i' haven;t done anyonething that stupid while I have been in Dublin.

but yeah. need to deal with this. *sigh* But, I will manage dammit. Somehow. (having a Zoi along will help, if she can make it, for that means I can rest assured ath t if the bastard lays a hand on me? He will regret it. Nto my word against his, for one.)

... Sometimes, I wish life was less complicated.

Hmmm

May. 10th, 2007 04:31 pm
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So I got some important stuff sorted out and the rest of today is fgoing to involve packing and headdesking about how to get this all sorted out, just purely transportwise. *shakes head* tbh this is scaring me a lot, making me kind of... shiver and wish I had someone to give a hand becuase this is jsut, not somethign I can figure out how to handle. *shakes head*

In other news, well,a fter I sdsorted thing sout I had time for a short stroll of Temple bar and saw a few familiar people. including assomeone I have figured out I have a crush on, and this made me think how different crush is from more serious feelings. When I have a crush on somone - when i see them, my heart skips a beat, I feeel silly, if they pay attention to me I feel warm and a bit giddy and I have a silly feeling even after they go away. and it doesn;t hurt, it doesn;t matter if they are taken or not or anything like that - it is jsut good stuff.

when igt gets into serious emotions, then the pain comes. because there's an intense desire for more - not physically, not really, that is more of the crush spectrum, but.. to be able to have, and it hurts when I can;t, it's a lot less giddy, it is a quiet happy, and a hurt afterwards. *shakes head*

.. why am I thinking about this again?

ah yeah. becuase some men jsut look sickeningly good in leather and make me feel all sorts of silly.

gnugh.

Mar. 27th, 2007 01:44 pm
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So I am alive. as usual. barewly. not atr work because I was up till 3.30 trrying to get my head a bit more straight, re: sunday evening and now I feel ded.

and need to do stuff, which is of the ev0lness.

roommates are giving me a bit of an uissue - i think i am too much of a geek for themn. all they see of mer, i am either messing weith my computer or going out. *sigh* this is not of the good. iu overheard them talking. which makes for a sad ara. In general life seems to be vrery, very issueful at the momnt.

Nodis, you up for tat coffee today? COuld meet at the McDonalds cafe at, say, fiveish if that is ok with you?

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